Wednesday, December 28, 2005
A Freakin Fun House
Now I'm not fooling anybody and I know damn well that I still don't know nothing about nothing, but it sure does seem to me that if you can have just one thought worth thinking, you're doing a hell of a lot better then most people.
And the real beauty of it is just this - that most of the time the thought is so simple that when you think it, you figure it must be some mistake.
One simple thought. One simple idea can make a life worth living.
I think I said some time before that I read too much. It keeps me from thinking.
I'll stand by that. And I'll open it up to the floor. Cept maybe its listen too much or watch too much. This sense or that, its all the same. We're all running away from our minds.
I have a friend who's always scolding me for running away and hiding myself in this or that. He says that you have to examine your mind and learn to understand it, so that you can train it and overcome it.
But I'm not so sure. I'm not so sure of anytime I have to do something. Seems to me that death trumps all those have to's and nobody's really given me a very good rebuttal.
I digress. I thought I was going to say something tonight. But I guess not.
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Laryngitis
I think I've about had it with all them crooked lines for the time being. Time to sit back and let it all go south. With the risk of sounding a bit too cute, it is time to let hegel play the fool.
The truth of the matter is that I lost my voice again. It happens from time to time, it happens far too often and it makes me wish I could make it stop. It happens the same every time. A severe case of laryngitis and I have to keep myself busy whispering to ghosts of hope that never come true.
A structural flaw of sorts. My very own.
So it was laryngitis. You get that when you start to care about who's listening and you stop caring about who's caring.
And the best thing to do when you can't speak is to shut up.
The other truth is that I have found something worth saying again. But that's going to just have to wait. I'm still struggling just to right myself here, its a little slow and there isn't the least bit of a beat coming to my ear just yet. I'm feeling a bit tipsy from even this kiddie pool of words right now. So this is enough for now.
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